Why Did I let You Go?

It’s been awhile since you are gone. I see no stars in the sky. Nights come early and mornings are not good anymore. I don’t sing songs not even when I am happy. Because I barely remember when was the last time I laughed. I know it was my fault and you never wanted me to say sorry. Sorry wouldn’t have filled the space between us which happened because of me. I know that you are gone forever. I don’t remember how many years, months, days and minutes have passed since you walked away from my life but it sure feels like a lifetime. I never said it to you and now I want to say it on my blog.

I am sorry. I should have never let you go. Even though you went away I had the time to get you back in my life. But something deep inside me stopped me.

Sorry won’t undo things which have happened, but it means that it was my fault. I accept it. I now believe that not meeting me purely came out of stress from you corporate life and you were not trying to ignore me. My critics said you were giving me hints that you no longer want to be with me. I now realize they are no one to control my life. I should have figured it out with you.

I am sorry for not returning your calls. I am sorry to turn my face from you when you expected me to stay with you on that chilly December night and have a chat about our future over hot coffee.

I am sorry I took you for granted. I thought everything is just the same between us. I am sorry to hurt you. I am sorry.

I am sorry for not saying ‘I Love You Too’ when you said ‘I Love You’ to me. I wanted my ‘I Love You’ to be special. I sorry, I just never read between the lines.

Now I am closing as I don’t have anything else to say. I am enjoying my life and I am completely over you now. I burnt all your letters, deleted you emails, your phone numbers and I won’t be wishing you B’day anymore. I will never meet you, not today, not after five years, not in this lifetime. I wish you a great life. Goodbye