Category — I, Me & Myself

Exactly 3:20 AM at the time of typing this Post. I think all my Plans of getting into a systematic routine are not working the way I wanted.Well, I am not complaining, it’s only me who is responsible for it.

But, I suppose this is the last day ( or night ) for me to stay up this long. Will be trying to be regular on the blog and Entertain you people or say will try to entertain. Too many thing happening in my offline life ( I am really confused about saying it my real life as my online life get more time than offline). Have busy in loads of things. Finally have got some relief for few days. Will have a kick ass month of May as few projects lined up already. They will eat all my time and the Heat is Delhi is not allowing me Enjoy my blogging profession to the core.

It was just two months ago that I had to skip days sometime weeks to take bath. “Mujhe lagta hai mujhe break chahiye is garmi se, bheed bhaad se aur logon ko lagta hai ki mujhe bas bahane chahiye break lene ke”

Well, its 3:30 Am now, head is almost empty I need to fill it with some nice and colorful dreams. Also have got an early morning, totally depending on Mr Alarm. ok now this is getting girlish talk.

BTW, I am trying to use twitter again. @asifahmd. I try to be Regular there as I use it from my Mobile Pone. I think you should be on twitter too.

Well at least think about it.I am going now.

Sleeping…..Zzzzzzzzzzz

Eating alone in the University Canteen became a habit after one whole year. Once I sat with the regular Thali which used to cost Rs7 at my time in 2002. Money was the only thing that made students eat there, nothing else was there in the food except that. There were many subtends who knew this but ate there because of the low price. Other places had Rs10 per plate Daal and Rs1 Per Roti.

One day I saw their dish cleaning process. The process was very short. I think I should discuss it with you. One guy used to collect the plates from the table and bring them to a dirty place. There was one bucket of water, one guy standing there, he used to dip 5 or 6 plates in the bucket and threw it to the other guy, the other guy used to wipe those plates with a dirty cloths, white was the original color of the cloth but it was black now. Now those plates were ready for the next serving.

I never wanted to know their cooking process. That was enough for me. I never went there, ok, I did go there but I took packaged stuff and that too without plates. maybe that’s the reason of my Ureter Stone Problem

Well, Dharchula, is in Dist Pithoragarh, in Uttrakhand state of India. This is not my native place, but my father is Posted here, in NHPC,

10 years ago we were in Chamba District, in Himachal Pradesh, 5 years ago we were in Kishtwar, in Dist Doda, which is in J&K.

and Currently here, in Dharchula.

Its a place near Nepal Border (I even go for a walk in Nepal, every evening)

The River is Called Kaali Nadi (Black River) which is counted as a border between India and Nepal. I took this Picture from India.

So the other Mountain is in Nepal.

Even the Roads are very dangerous, very small, steep and narrow. If any vehicle from the opposite side crosses, the other vehicle stops to let it go.

and believe me, you need to follow all the traffic rules, and if you wont, you’ll risk you life.

Here is a view of the Colony, where I live, Looks so beautiful, clean and peaceful.

This is the Google Earth Image of the Colony and the circled area is my Home.

This Colony has been build on a Dormant Volcano. Which is believe to be quite from  200 years.

Last few days were really very painful days for me. Well, not emotionally but literally. few days ago I had a severe pain in stomach. people around me thought its another excuse for not doing anything, really disgusts me.

I took it seriously after two painful nights and went to the doctor.

This is the report of my Ultra Sound of the Abdomen which says…

Kidneys are normal is size, shape, position, outline and echogenecity. Parenchymal thickness is normal and the cortico-medullary differentiation is maintained. renal sinus echo-complex is normal on the left side with no evidence of calyceal dilatation or calculus is seen. Mild aegree of pelvo-caliectasis is seen on the right side due to obstruction caused by an echogenic focus measuring 5.4mm and casting distal acoustic shadowing in the upper third of the ureter. The mildly dilated ureter in the upper third.

Ok, Cut the crap. In Simple Present tense,

I’ve got Stone in my f*****g Stomach and it pains like hell.

I know people don’t die with stone but I still need some sympathy. It’s a bloody 5.4mm stone and I have to Pee it out. Hope you guys can imagine the pain.

Photo Credit: Cathy Empey

When I was Small, I mean like the one in the picture, I am always told that I was little different from other infants, I did not Cry all the time, I was so very nice to take care of. I grew up with the same thing, I am as decent as I was born.

I think this is the only thing that has remain within me. Everything else is no more like that, Yes, stupid to think these things but I was just wondering this, why do I always have to be like that, I see aggressive people everyday, I see people fighting over small issues, even my close ones, but, why they expect me to surrender every time, just because I am on a Calm Mode most of the time I am supposed to remain calm and listen to every Bullshit that has been feed by people around me.

I ask you, how would you react if someone, ok not someone but people who know you, compare you with the best people on earth. why do they compare you with best people. In this competitive world, being a satisfied person is not a good thing, but why I love to feel like that, I don’t like competing with people, I have got just 100 years to live, and I think 99% of the people on this earth die under the age of 100. Cant I be satisfied and enjoy the rest of the years of my life. If this is not it, why I was Taught that Poem in School about being satisfied and to be satisfied is a good thing.

Believe me, it’s not that I don’t know how to be aggressive or how to fight over small issues, I can also be aggressive, I am aggressive at times, But, I don’t like to be, this is an inbuilt thing. knowing this fact, people try to take advantage of it and if I deny, they feed me all the psychological crap, all the emotional stuff. knowing that I’ll melt over and surrender.

So, i want to change the thing which has remain the same since I was born, being decent doesn’t work anymore. not for me, not for anyone else.

One thing I noticed about these personal blogs, if there is a girl writing about her random stuff, her blog will have loads and loads of followers, and it’s needless to say that all the followers are guys, including few girls, I can’t say the sexual preferences about those girls.

I feel shy about using this sexual word of any other objectionable word, but I have this feeling that Google is really bias, because it sends a lot of traffic (visitors) to bloggers who writ these words or are more modern or maybe try to be modern. Something many people calls it pseudo intellectual.

My motive of this blog is to get attention, well, this is why I write on it, I put my time on it, if it was to be personal, and I wouldn’t have created this blog at all. It’s just the beginning of New year and I have many plans for this blog, Asif Ahmed’s Blog (yeah yeah I am talking about me as third person) will not be personal anymore, I would be writing about more stuff, just to get inside Google which could help me get some people eye on my blog.

The first thing I did was, changing the theme of my blog, it was all black theme and was quite slow, this theme is little fast.

I am going to try the 80/20 rule, it’s a rule that 80% of the results show up from 20% of your efforts, I believe it, yes, tested and proved, that’s the reason I am here. I mean I passed all my exams based on that rule.

Getting up early in the morning is another tough thing I need to implement in order to make my days more productive, (I am writing this post at 1:27 in the morning). Well, that’s why I said it’s a tough thing.

Less internet and more studies, this is the most important thing to implement in 2010. Sometimes I completely forge that I am still a student, I can and will be making money my entire life, but, I would regret it later if I did not study and complete my degree which is going to take two years, if I could implement that 80/20 rule.

There are many more things to do in 2010, I would not count this January in 2010 as I can’t apply thing so quickly, specially that getting up early, (its freezing cold in N.Delhi). Anyways, its really getting late, I have already borrowed half an hour of time form my sleep.